Appearing in Being
- gangasoulfulsilenc
- Oct 20
- 2 min read
There is a moment on the path when we begin to fear that we might lose something precious — ourselves.
We come into contact with something — with That — which we experience as infinitely still, empty, and spacious. It is as if we are standing at the edge of an ocean of infinite emptiness, imagining we know what it would be like to let ourselves sink deeper into that silent void.
We imagine it as formless, timeless, without a center, without expression.
Without fulfillment.
Naturally, that doesn’t seem appealing — even frightening.
What would remain then?
The great nothingness?
At first, we do not yet feel the living beauty of silence, and so a movement of withdrawing often follows: “Here, I will definitely not find it.”
This fear of losing one’s individuality in Being can become a great obstacle for the spiritual practitioner. We hold on far too long to our identification with the personality — the way we have come to know ourselves throughout our lives. Even the aspects of our personality that cause us suffering are often preferred over freedom.
The fear of losing individuality arises from the misconception that what gives color to our unique expression comes from the ego. As if the ego — the separate “I” with which we identify — were the source of spontaneity, free expression, and uniqueness.
As is so often the case, the truth is quite the opposite.
It can be seen differently: as the structure of the ego softens, there is more openness within us, creating more space for Being — for Love and Wisdom — to express itself in the most unique and spontaneous way within the world of time and form.
We need only look at the sages of old to realize that form — the personality — does not disappear. Each of them was a very unique, authentic and sometimes very unconventional being.
When we read about their lives, we discover: the personality does not vanish; it becomes freer.
It is no longer imprisoned by the fears and desires of the ego structure that once confined it.
There may still be preferences, but we are less dependent on them, and they lose their compulsive power. When life does not meet our preferences, we are no longer disturbed by it.
We receive life as it unfolds, because we recognize ourselves — and the world around us — as that infinite openness in which Being expresses itself freely and intelligently in an endless stream of creativity.
Or, more precisely: there is a deep knowing that everything appearing within openness, and openness itself, is That: Being, God, Wisdom, Love.
And if you ever find yourself again standing at the edge of that ocean of silence, meeting that part of you which is afraid to disappear, hold it close. Welcome all the sensations, thoughts, and feelings that arise. Slowly, it may begin to soften in the warmth of your loving attention — and perhaps even become curious about what it might be like to float in that ocean of silence.
As a wave, and as water.
Ganga Ma 20 oktober, 2025
